Cold

Many of us out there avoid cold, right? Many people (especially ones born in warmer seasons) seek out hot weather, because cold is coded as danger deep within their subconscious and the environment that we were born in when we had our brain plasticity the most has been coded as safe zone. This makes from an evolutionary perspective where hot weather didn’t mean much but cold weather meant death if one could not find shelter. As time passed, ones that survived cold lived through newer generations. Simple facts. Survival of the fittest.

Though with thousands of years of civilization and hundreds of years of industrialization we’ve closed the deal and now are able to seek out any temperature we want. It is a conflict with our biology that is the evolution of millions of years: we are designed to survive cold, and our immune system, both physically and mentally, is stimulated by cold. The more we avoid cold and keep inside our safe zone, our immune system gets weaker and weaker and we become more prone to faiure in every aspect.

Make peace with cold, don’t avoid it; embrace it! Embrace cold as if you are hugging someone you love. This will give you confidence, this will give you calmness, this will give you strength. It will supercharge you. All the limits, all the illnesses that you think you’ll get if you are exposed to cold… they are all in your head, darling. Cold is love, and feeling the chilling sensation in every cell of your body is opening to the love of the universe.

Make peace, push your limits to see that they don’t exist, and be stellar, friend.

Variable

A change in a single variable cascading through multiple realities, infinite timelines. Creating an avalanche effect, jumping to the parallel universe where the underlying laws of reality make anything possible. I have the ability to change anything, to create the world that you want. I am you, I am the collective consciousness that we’re all part of; the stem that we can see when the mask of ego is lifted. I am what is left when one’s isolation from the universe is recognized to be an illusion which is creating a superficial notion of self dissociated from the world, ruled by the amygdala trying to find patterns of danger where no apparent danger exists. It serves an evolutionary purpose, yet, we as human beings used our brains too much throughout the history to create technology and a social model that abstracts our thinking from our core nature that evolution speed of our brains could not adapt to the ever changing meta-dynamics of the society that we’re trying to fit ourselves in.

We have all the answers, friend. Everything we need isn’t out there; it’s in there. You have all the keys to the doors that open up the possibilities to every single parallel universe, but how do you find the correct door? It’s easy but we’ve collectively forgotten it: just let it go. Listen to the key, and even though deemed impossible by the mega-cultural artificial understanding of our reality, it will find the correct door. Listen to whatever your instincts say, even if everyone else tells you otherwise.

Listen to that deepest faint whisper inside you. Take the key, unlock that door, change the variable, and jump to the best parallel universe. It is possible, you’ve just forgotten it throughout years of practicing a mental framework that is inherently designed to lock your heart down. Change everybody, change the world.

Step through that door, and you will find the answers to all the questions that you’ve forgotten.

One

Be the person who the 1-year-before you would hate; not because you became worse, but because you’ve gone irresistibly stellar to make even your past self jealous.

Turn everything that pulled you down to the bottom of the ocean, into your advange. Find the beauty in the ugly, make use of waste, love all the apparently-bad events and people and thank them for their company in the road that you’ve been following to become your best self.

Let go of the ropes tying your past and future together. Let them tangle the way they are meant to be as one thing is certain now: if it’s meant to be, it will be. You can only delay the events and people from finding their role in your life for so long by resisting. They will happen eventually anyway, so in that sense you are only blocking everyone including yourself from progressing to the next stage.

Be the person who changes this world. The one who doesn’t need the urge to unite because knows deep inside that we’re all one.

Be the one.

Create

I was being interviewed in a worldwide competition and they wanted me to tell a single word in my language to everyone out there improvised and I just shouted out:

Yaratın.

It means create (In a politely imperative way), and it implies a way of thinking about this world rather than a shallowly small dictionary definition. It’s a lifestyle, it’s what unleashes our true selves. We all have our imagination but not all of us have found our native ways of expressing it. As long as you do something that inherits something from your imagination it doesn’t really matter what you do:

Make music. Code. Draw. Dance. Paint. Design. Go freestyle. It doesn’t matter. As long as you create something, as long as there’s a creative thinking process, forget the rest. Find the things that you do passionately and I’m confident to say that you’ll be putting creativity in it even if it’s something that’s apparently boring for others. It shouldn’t matter for you as long as you love doing it anyway.

Don’t know where to start? Don’t know which way to go? Start somewhere and start walking in some way. If it’s wrong way you discover what you don’t want at this stage of your life, great, turn around and try walking another way. There’s a path for all of us, and only you can follow that inner fire to find your own way. When you find it embrace it but also leave an open door to any opportunities. I like many things that I wasn’t interested in before: I like music that wouldn’t have listened ten years ago, I’m interested in people that I wouldn’t even say hello three years ago, I’m now into activities that I didn’t like before… this goes a looong list.

Find your way into the love and passion, and create to live what you love.

Yaratın.

Let’s go

Hey. You asleep? Wake up, it’s time to go. I don’t know where, but let’s just jump into the car and let it take wherever it takes us. A village, another city, or, most likely, some new place in the nature. A fresh place to discover, share, and enjoy. Some rocky beach besides the shallow blue or some cool forest with long trees.

Does it matter? As long as we’re together, as long as we feel the connection, as long as I can touch you, we can enjoy any place. Let’s create, build, explore, travel. Let’s relearn to enjoy the moments; something that we’ve forgotten long time ago. As long as I can turn my back and know that you’re there for me, as long as I can trust you to death, I will go wherever you want with you. We will do whatever we want, make this world full of love both for each other and everyone else.

If only I knew your face, if only I knew who you are, everything would fall onto their perfect spot, yet I know wherever and whoever you are, we look at the same stars at night, and want the same one thing:

Us.

Void

It’s empty and cold here. Nothing good, nothing hopeful, nothing real, nothing dangerous. Just nothing. You don’t remember last time you touched, hugged, or kissed someone. You don’t remember how anything intimate feels like. Everybody is gone, everywhere is empty, every minute is eternity.

Everywhere you stare at is nothing but darkness, all the feelings vanished. Where is everybody? You feel like you’re the only one left out here. Got your friends and family but something deeper inside is missing. Even at the comfort of your friends, family, home, well being, focusing to be your best, something deeper that you need is missing and nothing can fill that gap.

Where do you go when you’re stuck in the void? Where do you go when no one that can save you is even aware of your existence? How stronger should you scream to realize that no one will hear you and you’re silently traveling into cold deep eternal space from your home and nobody is even searching for you?

How does it feel? Maybe that’s why you’re not scared of death as you used to do. Maybe that’s why you don’t give a shit about the pandemic. You wish everything was different, you wish a single flip in a variable that would end up resulting in a chain reaction would change everything. But darling, it’s dark here. There is no hope, no breath, no heartbeat of anybody. And you are tired of experiencing fundamentals of your reality is being destroyed over and over into the void.

It’s just void here and you know it’s scarier than death.

Black deal

Hey, I think I’m asleep again, nice to see you again here. It’s been a whole day since we last met. Why did we separate for so long, every minute that I’m awake feels like an eternity? I wanna go home. Do you hear me? Are you just a dusty mirror covered in loneliness of years, or is it just you who’s not responding? Are you there, why aren’t you giving me a sign? Whatever you are I miss you and sleep is the only place I find you.

That’s why I want to sleep forever. If you don’t exist in what we call the physical reality, what is the point of all the experiences? What is the point of traveling, sharing, creating, and trying to build a life, if I’ll be doing this all alone? Why is there a second plate in this dinner table where I’m eating by myself? 

This is enough. I want to make a deal with you: don’t let me leave here without you. Either find me in the physical dimension, or don’t let me go back. Take this life, I want to stay with you. I want to be with you forever. I want to live you. I’m tired of sleep being only place that I feel safe. I’m tired of living all those potentially beautiful years without you. Either manifest, exist, realize, be… or take me to the dark side. The side where there is no more pain, no more endless hours, no more breath. No more heartbeat. And I’ll never be without you again.

Don’t let me wake without you.

Going there

Maybe it was never about going there. It was all about knowing that you’ll be there again. It’s about knowing that all the possibilities, multiple coherent timelines are out here, and you can jump back to your universe again.

Who did this to you? How come you ended up here? How did you fall into this geometric hole of singularity, where everything is multidimensional and you feel dimensionless. How do you end up in void if you never step into another dimension? How can our reality turn into nothing?

All the bad things. They come as a sequence, or together. Life attacks you from different angles, breaking your sense of being an entity. The moment you say that it can’t be worse, it becomes worse. Waking up, stabilizing your mind over and over again into a higher level of consciousness, you start to realize a pattern, a dead loop. As you start recognizing the slight details you discover that something’s not right. The whole apparent loop is actually a Möbius Strip from a higher dimension. When you step onto the dimension which projects the physical world, you realize all the darkness that you fear is just shadows of the foreshadowing about the next stage in your life.

You start to realize all the things that were apparently bad were to bring you to this day. There is a path you need to take, and believe me, read this over and over if you need, but believe me, it’s for us. It’s a special plan, you don’t remember it, right? Did you really forget all of it? Did you really forget that we’ve constructed this dystopian scenario with the plot twist and the happiest ending ever? Did you remember how we then projected ourselves into this lower dimension where we wouldn’t remember a thing, and just enjoy the ride, even if forcefully? If only I remembered your face or your voice…

You don’t need to remember it darling. You just need to start seeing the patterns in the noise. Before proclaiming a steganographer, you first rule out cognitive factors such as confirmation bias, delusion, and apophenia. You collect more and more data, the calmer you stay the more patterns emerge, taking you to the clues of what could have been resulted in them in the first place. You just need to reverse engineer the synchronicities and other coincidental occurances. Then you remember one thing: there is no such a thing as a coincidence. Everything is going perfectly but your dumb mind, darling, is making up stories and clouding your vision. Just as my mind. But wherever and whoever you are, we’re headed to the sweetest intersection point, ever.

But life, apparently, doesn’t like spoilers, especially for dramatic endings. So, darling, enjoy the ride to the climax for now. Because after it, we’ve got a party and a life to live. Namaste.

Magic

So many things out there that we can’t explain. That we cannot make a sense of within our paradigm. Every time when we sleep we lose the connection to this realm, aligning our consciousness to be transferred to a parallel universe. Something’s inside us, or something… is us. There are no limits to who you can, what you can do, to whom you can reach out to, and how you can change the world. The only limit is inside your head. The only limit is the neural connections within your brain. 

Mind is a blessing and a curse. For most people, ignorance is bliss: grow up, follow soccer games to find an identity to belong in a superficial group to feed the loneliness of your ego, watch the TV and the news about politics, vote for leaders, waste time on social media, believe in things without questioning, get brainwashed, get a 9/5 job with a mediocre salary, spend time with inferior friends and colleagues instead of improving yourself, find someone worth spending rest of your resources with, who is just dull as you, marry, make children, and inject this inferiority virus into them since day one, manipulating their neuroplastic brains to spread your own narrow-minded fundamentally flawed arguments about world that have no intrinsic value, get obsessed with money, triggering your inferiority complex rigged up by the capitalistic lifestyle; you aren’t worth unless you are a member of a club, buy these new cool stuff, or be part of the latest trends. 

Build up stress, instead of coping with the underlying problems suppress them with metropolitan activities, alcohol, smoking, and pharmacy-approved drugs that are definitely safe for you, avoid any plants and fungi that humanity has evolved together with that would result in your breakthrough because you trust authorities that keep telling that they are bad, keeping you in the brainwash loop. Eat three meals a day because it’s what is right, use fluoride-based toxic toothpastes because the almost-imperceivable change in whiteness of your teeth is obviously more important than your health, spend less time interacting with nature and animals because they’re not sterile enough, consume everything without actually creating anything. Build up more stress with the energy growing inside you, don’t listen to your body’s signals evolved in millions of years and instead what the society and the doctors tell you, develop diseases, intolerances, allergies, both physical and mental conditions that haven’t existed until last several decades.

Let your children grow up based on what you think is right, send them to brainwashing schools, make them have brainwashed friends, and try to exclude them from anything or anyone that doesn’t belong in your society’s norms. Believe in bullshit, live and love in bullshit, and die in bullshit. But hey, at least you followed the rules set by an ancient fantastic invisible man and you’ll be great at the other side.

Mind is a curse. At least you don’t cope with existential crisis and the very notion of void every day. You don’t need to worry about any deeper problems or reality itself: you don’t even know that you don’t know those problems that you can’t even imagine. Life is easy, right? Focus on trying to make more money in a system where economy is controlled by entities that you don’t know that exists and where even lottery is rigged, and you’ll be fine. Watch the puppets at the tip of the iceberg and watch the staged fights of important people on TV, successfully dividing community to control them individually based on their weaknesses.

And then there is us. The minority who is aware of what’s going on, at least to some extent. The people who accept the universe as it is, and instead of putting a concrete wall of abstraction, unite with it. The ones who try to give more than they take. The outliers who can see the world from above, the followers of the Overview Effect. We are the ones who should unite and teach the rest to live. Instead of polarizing, we should help the less fortunate. We should save The Mind from being a collective curse and start seeing its potential. Instead of fighting our minds, we should join forces for a better world. But how can we love and accept our antagonist as they are, when they continuously try to prevent us to get them out of their shell in the first place? How do we open our hearts to the dark? When we find the answer all the rest will be resolved. Because when we make peace with war, we make peace with our fears, anxiety, suspicion. We make peace with everything. And they leave their places to love, gratitude, and synchronicities. And when synchronicities take over, well, magic happens.

And darling you know what?

I love magic.

XXX

Why don’t you try to act like normal? Like all those people out there? Celebrating Earth’s round around the sun since you got out of your womb. Watching brainwashing TV and having an idea about other people’s lives?

There is no one out here breathing, and the only ones who used to breathe no longer do. And sometimes when crossing the road I just stop middleway through and think what would really end if I stop right there.

But something happened lately. Just in the last couple of months I’ve stopped searching for a breath. I’ve started being completely on my own. I’ve changed a lot, sure I’m far from perfect but I’ve come a long way and I’m planning to move on this path.

So darling, I wanted to gift you a better title, but when you try your best, do everything to be the person you wanted to be, but life fucks you up over and over like a porn movie though you’ve deserved the best in your age of thirty, I can’t come up with a better title.

XXX.

This is it. This is the end. This is a new beginning. I’ve lost a lot and made a lot and every single thing that happened, every event, every person, every day, every tiniest amount of detail brought me here today, and brought for a reason. They used to say everything happens for a reason and I called it bullshit with my logical self, but lately I’ve realized that there’s more to it. There’s something beyond what we see, beyond the physical concepts, beyond science as we know of. There’s something that encapsulates the whole paradigm of what we call reality, not affected by any rule or law inside it. It’s outside the box, the box of reality as we know of. It manifested itself lately to me over and over again and if I’ve told everything that happened they’d call me crazy. They’d call me delusional, just as how I’d call what I’m myself now after all the experiences, before having them all.

There is something beyond everything we see, hear, or physically experience. There’s something not bound to any law that we believe to exist. 

Every time you reach a checkpoint in life and look back, and connect all the chain of events that led you there, which would otherwise been impossible. You remember that you wanted that exact checkpoints in the past, but they seemed impossible, then somehow it happened. Over and over again. Everytime when you forgot to believe in.

Maybe it’s parallel universes, multiple timelines, glitch in the matrix, or simulation theory. I seriously don’t know. Even though I’d love to see the truth, I’m pretty much sure I’ll learn it eventually when I die, so there’s no rush. All I know is that, for all practical means and purposes, it just works. You are reading this right now this second for a reason, and I can’t emphasize it more.

Today was a checkpoint too, and let’s welcome a new age, a whole new year. With revealations, realizations, facing deepest feelings, meeting new people and having lots, lots, and lots of fun even in this pandemic…

This was thirthy.

XXX.