Sometimes after a deep sleep in the middle of a day it feels like I’ve woken up to a parallel universe. The time is different, stuck in the past and future, experiencing both together. People are different, as if I’ve I’m visiting the same spots throughout the entire history. The wind blowing, sun is shining, clouds are forming differently. Everything moving superfast and superslow, and even the air tastes different. Something feels off, as the fabric of reality glitched, something has changed in The System. The chilling feeling of sensing everything’s slightly off, as if you’re about to realize that you’re in a dream in a dream where light casts differently, where shadows reflect in unexpected ways. Sounds are distorted, colors are shifted, time is stretched. Feels almost unreal.
A world where people are respected by not which imaginary boundaries they are born within, not because of the family they have, but because of what they create in this world. Not what race or nationality or religion or anything inherited, but the intellectual and creative capability and the potential they have. Where people are motivated not by money or status, but bringing love and joy to themselves and others.
This should be the world that we belong to.
You know you can’t be just friends with some people the moment you see them. You’d want to, but you’ll want more. You don’t want to move away: You want them in your life but at a really intimate level. You want to share many memories and good times. You want to make them happy the way they make you smile, you want to hug them so tightly that you never part.
You can be playful with every single person on Earth but when it’s them, you feel stuck. You feel afraid to break the ice. You can’t clean cut, but you also can’t move any closer. You’re stuck in a limbo with no way out. You stare at the sky like it’s your first time seeing the stars, and think: there’s got to be a way.
There you are, stuck in a limbo.
Sometimes you just want to scream with every single bit of air in your lungs, right into the eye of the darkest hours in a starry, moonlit night, vibrating all the particles in the universe, penetrating through multiverses and all the possible timelines, all the humans, all the animals, all the trees, all the rocks, echoing like infinite mirrors of reality, fading away into the darkness, in a silent, lonely night.
Aren’t you tired of hearing “you don’t need anyone to be happy” or “if you aren’t happy single you can’t be happy with someone” nonsense? We are social creatures, not bacteria. We are meant to be together, not isolated. And if we aren’t happy, perhaps all we really need is someone just unhappy as we are to turn all the solitude into mutual happiness. Simple as that.
It’s been a while since you’ve been here, isn’t it? The lovely people are gone, all the good memories have faded like old photographs under sunlight. The same streets doesn’t feel the same anymore and the sunlight burns just different. Rain touches gently but feels like a punch. All the leftovers are spoiled, abandoned, and sound like rust. Like a parallel universe, an uncanny, exploited copy of the one I belong in that I’ve fallen into. Feels like a nightmare and I want to wake up home again.
Isn’t it a lovely feeling to feel lost just to realize that what you call “being lost” was exactly the right way to go in the first place when connecting the dots backwards?
We all have it. All the good things fading away into the scrapyard of what we call the past tense. All the memories, plans, future goals fade away into a blob of chaotic forgottenness.
We forget people, forget good things, forget how we made them smile.
And we remember that the person who used to smile no longer smiles.
You are vulnerable as your fears. Nothing can harm you more than what you can fear. And now, face your greatest fears; dive into them instead of running away… you’ve ran for so long darling. Look into the eye and run into as fast as you could ever imagine. Look at the mirror that you’ve been afraid to look at, with everything naked, and see that the way out of this game that you’ve created inside your mind is only through recognizing that it’s just a game. You’ve fought a lot and reached the final boss. And the hardest part of all wasn’t this monster’s physical strength; it was, despite being powerless, the fact that it had convicted you that you can never defeat it.
Leave yourself now. Stop resisting. Let whatever’s gonna happen, whatever is meant to be, happen. And may nothing be able to harm you again. Let your body down, feel the warm touch of the wind as you fall closer to the truth. Then open your eyes at the spot that you fear the most. Wear your crown at the spotlights of the movie scene that you are afraid of seeing the most.
Be your life’s agonist, kill the greatest fear that tried to kill you, and change reality.
Forever.
Dear mirror. Hey. Are you there? Do you copy? Can I speak to you even if I feel like screaming into the void?
Well, I think this means yes so here we go. Do you ever look at yourself through my eyes to see yourself through your eyes like I look into my eyes through you to see myself again? Do you ever speak of sacred words from your mouth to hear their reflection on this symmetric world echoing through the parallel universes? Do you ever play with sand like a little child playing through the sands of time? Do you listen to the whispers inside seashells, or connect all the stars looking like dots to make a shape of a star from this Pale Blue Dot?
Do you touch the eternal silence and taste the bitter dark nights, dreaming of quantum fluctations? I do.
I know you do too. When I scream “who are you” you always whisper “I am you” through the echoes, spanning multiple dimensions of spacetime. You are the answer to the coincidences with practically zero possibilities. You are all the galaxies speaking to their stars as cells speaking to their nuclei, entangling the micro and the macro, encapsulating spacetime itself. You are everything; me, all the other beings, all the physical reality and beyond. Yet you don’t have a name.
Who do I call you? If I call you anything isn’t that calling myself that anyway? Isn’t whatever is out there also whatever is in there, too, turning arrows 180 degrees back but still pointing the same way? Is our way of thinking constrained in this physical brain Turing-complete? Is there a glitch that would allow us to break this jail when we find an error in the code of life? What if those errors are honeypots to distract us from revealing reality beyond?
And even whenever we do reveal reality, how can we prove that it isn’t also a perfectly designed scene in a higher dimensional theater of some sort of a simulation?
Are you still there friend? Are you listening darling? Are you braver now? Are you brave enough to rewrite your entire paradigm of existence? Are you ready to forget even the things that you’ve forgotten to have existed? Are you ready to remember what you could have not ever imagined to be imaginable?
Are you ready to open your eyes that you never knew to have existed? Are you ready to see reality like awakening from a dream just to see that it’s also a dream, going on and on. But when you actually do wake up, you know that it’s not a dream anymore. You know it’s reality.
Are you ready to wake up to a reality that is so real that our current understanding of consciousness is a dream to like a dream is to it?
Dear mirror, some just see reflections of light when they look at you and think that it’s all.
And I see all the possible parallel universes.